I thought taking the day off would clear my head and make it all easier because of my new found peace... turns out, you need to stay firmly entrenched in your version of the BS or else it will eat you alive when you get back into it.
It's like quicksand, it's futile to fight, so you just sit and be quiet and let it suck you in.
Plus, I didn't get the cathartic WOW I was expecting. Still waiting, trying to let the thoughts pass through my head with barely a notice, hoping one will plant itself right in front of me and demand that this is the one to pay attention to, act on, build the next steps of my life with.
Until then... avoiding the cookie platter and enjoying whatever smiles I get, even if it is a one liner from a taken 20 year old...